Feeling better

The worst depression days passed. I don’t know for how long, but i feel better. Good enough to get my courage up and be more social and make more friends. Now, (even if it’s not true) i’m getting ideas into my head, that if someone will tell me that i’m super ugly, i could reply that “maybe, but  you’re not even in 50% that awesome like me” XD

I know that status won’t last long, and there will be a lot ups and downs, but i want to give myself a 2 years chance. I will try bear  it somehow till my face surgery. It’s my motivation to life now, cause i’m very curious how i will look O: Maybe depression will pass finally, if no, well, i have 2 years to think about it.

Now i’m trying to live more carefree, even if it’s only a mask which cover my demons. Also i decided to get some help from psychiatrist, and i’m planning to go on the psychiatric teraphy. At this moment I totally have no time to register there, but i definately decided, that i want to do it.

p.s. ngghh i’m so tired of the house make-over D: when the kitchen will be ready i will try to cook something finally ;u; (i wonder if i can)